I can't even think of a question title for this :/?

I'm not sure what's wrong with me anymore, i think i try to make myself physically ill in the hope of having to go to a hospital or something so i don't have to cope with my life at all anymore. I honestly can't cope with my stress anymore. Recently i've not been going to sleep at all, not eating a lot, sometimes less than one meal a day (never often more than that), just drinking high caffeine stimulant drinks (a lot) like red bull, Kx, red rooster, relentless etc. I don't want attention or anything, that's not my aim. I just want to be away from everything for a while, even if that means being pinned down by big guys in white coats trying to drug me 4 times a day.. Or lying in a hospital bed just sleeping for as long as i want or need. :/ I've even considered harming myself just to get away.. I reaallly don't know what to do anymore.. :/